Last night at the bar one person commented that she thought I had lost "a little weight"! I was ecstatic. These are the words I have been questing for. Like so many of you I played it off... "really TY I hadn't noticed...." when in reality I wanted to jump up and down and scream 14 lbs... in 7 short weeks... OMG.... OMG.... OMG!!!!!!!
Then came the crushing blow. I told my DH what had been said and he made a yuck face and looked at me like I'm crazy !Now I don't expect DH to get all excited for me and shout it from the roof tops... he sees me everyday, it's difficult to notice small changes when you see people day in and day out. I do however expect him to shelter my feelings and not make that damn yucky face!
I have noticed my body sheds weight on a cycle... loose for a day or two then hold for a day or two. The hold day is followed by a larger drop... like 1.5 lbs. I think it's trying to figure out if I'm going to keep feeding it. :) In the past I have not been so nice to my body, I've never been slender as an adult but I was not fearful of food until my children were born.
For the first 15 months I was a stay at home mom, money was tight, we relied on food stamps, wic and food banks. I ate very little during the day so there would be more for dinner. Then I began working 5 hour shifts.... "who needs to eat it's only 5 hours, besides, after gas and daycare if I spend money on food too there will be none of my pay left for bills and I might as well quit!"
My sick feelings about food only got worse when I started to gain weight. I was on depo provera at the time we I was weighed regularly. In one 12 week period I gained over 50 lbs. I was mortified.... at the time I was at 289 lbs. I didn't know what to do so I blamed the depo and stopped getting the shot. My weight remained unchanged, it has in fact slowly crept up in the 7 or eight years since I went off the shot.
Anyway, here I sit 7 or 8 years later just 6 lbs from where I was back then! It's so incredible to think I CAN DO IT!!!!
Then came the crushing blow. I told my DH what had been said and he made a yuck face and looked at me like I'm crazy !Now I don't expect DH to get all excited for me and shout it from the roof tops... he sees me everyday, it's difficult to notice small changes when you see people day in and day out. I do however expect him to shelter my feelings and not make that damn yucky face!
I have noticed my body sheds weight on a cycle... loose for a day or two then hold for a day or two. The hold day is followed by a larger drop... like 1.5 lbs. I think it's trying to figure out if I'm going to keep feeding it. :) In the past I have not been so nice to my body, I've never been slender as an adult but I was not fearful of food until my children were born.
For the first 15 months I was a stay at home mom, money was tight, we relied on food stamps, wic and food banks. I ate very little during the day so there would be more for dinner. Then I began working 5 hour shifts.... "who needs to eat it's only 5 hours, besides, after gas and daycare if I spend money on food too there will be none of my pay left for bills and I might as well quit!"
My sick feelings about food only got worse when I started to gain weight. I was on depo provera at the time we I was weighed regularly. In one 12 week period I gained over 50 lbs. I was mortified.... at the time I was at 289 lbs. I didn't know what to do so I blamed the depo and stopped getting the shot. My weight remained unchanged, it has in fact slowly crept up in the 7 or eight years since I went off the shot.
Anyway, here I sit 7 or 8 years later just 6 lbs from where I was back then! It's so incredible to think I CAN DO IT!!!!
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