On the way home from work Friday I had to slide my car seat forward. I've been driving this car with the seat in place for more then 2 years... Ladies I know your going to say my shoes were different... but they weren't. I'm 34 so I'm not shrinking. I really think some of the 16 lbs I've lost came off my ass/lower back.
I'm actually up 1/2 a lb. after this weekend. I didn't eat well. DH and I have been having problems and I think I ate some of them. I really do hope I'm able to figure out how to help him soon... knowing he's unhappy is killing me.
The weather here today is drab and raining, even so I hope to get a walk in near lunch. It's been my goal to walk 2-3 days a week since January but I've not done it once yet.
Monday, February 28, 2011
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
My Own Genetic Predisposition Theory
Image by Esthr via FlickrDoes your family have a fat gene?Mine sure does...
We love to be fat! Well that's not entirely true, but, we accept that we are fat because we are predisposed to be heavy.
Maybe your family has big bones, either way, it's not my fault I'm fat!!!
Sounds foolish right? It is!
For years I have felt that it was my destiny to carry all this extra baggage but it's not my parents fault.
Here in these wonderful United States we are led to believe that your families weight history determines your weight future, I argue that this is simply not true.
In my family we were not encouraged to participate in sports, I was not reminded that 6 cookies was not a good way to finish off the pizza I'd had for dinner, I was, not once, encouraged to read the side of the box.
My point is, while I do not think my genes effect my weight as I've been led to believe, I do think that a families value system as it relates to food gives the appearance of the former being true.
My challenge to you, challenge conventional thought and instead think about the choices you've been taught to make. Is there room for improvement?
Hubby's yucky face
Last night at the bar one person commented that she thought I had lost "a little weight"! I was ecstatic. These are the words I have been questing for. Like so many of you I played it off... "really TY I hadn't noticed...." when in reality I wanted to jump up and down and scream 14 lbs... in 7 short weeks... OMG.... OMG.... OMG!!!!!!!
Then came the crushing blow. I told my DH what had been said and he made a yuck face and looked at me like I'm crazy !Now I don't expect DH to get all excited for me and shout it from the roof tops... he sees me everyday, it's difficult to notice small changes when you see people day in and day out. I do however expect him to shelter my feelings and not make that damn yucky face!
I have noticed my body sheds weight on a cycle... loose for a day or two then hold for a day or two. The hold day is followed by a larger drop... like 1.5 lbs. I think it's trying to figure out if I'm going to keep feeding it. :) In the past I have not been so nice to my body, I've never been slender as an adult but I was not fearful of food until my children were born.
For the first 15 months I was a stay at home mom, money was tight, we relied on food stamps, wic and food banks. I ate very little during the day so there would be more for dinner. Then I began working 5 hour shifts.... "who needs to eat it's only 5 hours, besides, after gas and daycare if I spend money on food too there will be none of my pay left for bills and I might as well quit!"
My sick feelings about food only got worse when I started to gain weight. I was on depo provera at the time we I was weighed regularly. In one 12 week period I gained over 50 lbs. I was mortified.... at the time I was at 289 lbs. I didn't know what to do so I blamed the depo and stopped getting the shot. My weight remained unchanged, it has in fact slowly crept up in the 7 or eight years since I went off the shot.
Anyway, here I sit 7 or 8 years later just 6 lbs from where I was back then! It's so incredible to think I CAN DO IT!!!!
Then came the crushing blow. I told my DH what had been said and he made a yuck face and looked at me like I'm crazy !Now I don't expect DH to get all excited for me and shout it from the roof tops... he sees me everyday, it's difficult to notice small changes when you see people day in and day out. I do however expect him to shelter my feelings and not make that damn yucky face!
I have noticed my body sheds weight on a cycle... loose for a day or two then hold for a day or two. The hold day is followed by a larger drop... like 1.5 lbs. I think it's trying to figure out if I'm going to keep feeding it. :) In the past I have not been so nice to my body, I've never been slender as an adult but I was not fearful of food until my children were born.
For the first 15 months I was a stay at home mom, money was tight, we relied on food stamps, wic and food banks. I ate very little during the day so there would be more for dinner. Then I began working 5 hour shifts.... "who needs to eat it's only 5 hours, besides, after gas and daycare if I spend money on food too there will be none of my pay left for bills and I might as well quit!"
My sick feelings about food only got worse when I started to gain weight. I was on depo provera at the time we I was weighed regularly. In one 12 week period I gained over 50 lbs. I was mortified.... at the time I was at 289 lbs. I didn't know what to do so I blamed the depo and stopped getting the shot. My weight remained unchanged, it has in fact slowly crept up in the 7 or eight years since I went off the shot.
Anyway, here I sit 7 or 8 years later just 6 lbs from where I was back then! It's so incredible to think I CAN DO IT!!!!
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
14 lbs and counting
Image by benchilada via FlickrWell, I'm down 14 lbs. ppl have yet to notice. It's ok thou I know that at my current weight each pound is less visibly. I can't wait until ppl start to notice and comment to me. Sure I want to loose the weight to be healthy and more comfortable but the thing that will really make it real is the pride that will come from other ppl being excited for me.
I've had a really tuff week... DH and I are not exactly living in paradise. This have been uncomfortable between us this week. Due mostly to my Jealousy and his inability to ignore me when I get crazy. I have, so far, been able to refrain from eating these feelings. Seeing the scale steadily decline helps.
Finishing a day on MFP and seeing that you could weigh x... helps a lot too...
I've had a really tuff week... DH and I are not exactly living in paradise. This have been uncomfortable between us this week. Due mostly to my Jealousy and his inability to ignore me when I get crazy. I have, so far, been able to refrain from eating these feelings. Seeing the scale steadily decline helps.
Finishing a day on MFP and seeing that you could weigh x... helps a lot too...
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Introductions...
I guess a good place to start is with a few detail about me and why I'm here at MFP.
I turned 34 in December, I've been with my DH just over 15 years now. I love him dearly! He completes me like no one else could. I have 2 wonderful children, 1 boy 1 girl. I work full time, run a Girl Scout Troop, help with the Boy Scout troop and shoot darts.
I have never been on a "diet" I have never tried to loose weight. I have been overweight since puberty in roughly the 6th grade, prior to that I was very thin. I was not what would be considered obese until I used depo Provera birth control for several years.
My weight has increasingly become an issue in my life. It has rocked my confidence and my happiness. My DH and my family seem not to notice that I'm not comfortable in my own skin. I'm not sure how DH really feels about my current weight but he compliments me often and is proud to be seen with me regardless.
*** full disclosure ***
I purchased my first scale just a few weeks ago. My starting weight was 308.4lbs...
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It was horrifying to read that number...
I have read a lot of info here and I'm working on developing a support network to help me. The most important thing I've learned so far is I need to eat. Prior to January 3 when I started this journey I would eat just once a day. Dinner... now that I'm tracking my food I know that my dinners range from 500 - 800 calories... this is simply not enough!!!
I have increased my food intake to include some kind of breakfast as well as a healthy lunch.
Currently I weigh 296.0 - it's still a lot but WOW... I lost 12.4 lbs in about 5 1/2 weeks... I know I'm not setting any records but it's a healthy pace and should allow me to exceed my 50 lbs in 2011 goal... In other words... if I continue at this pace I will be back to my pre-pregnancy weight of 210 in about 1 year. It took me 11 years to gain the weight so it's incredible to think I could undo all that bad in just 1 short year.
In addition to MFP I log my goals on Stickk.com (2drgns) I put in the 50lbs and it gives me weekly #s to hit and calculated my final weight at the end of 52 weeks depending on my current progress...
Please feel free to email me. I need all the friends I can get.
I turned 34 in December, I've been with my DH just over 15 years now. I love him dearly! He completes me like no one else could. I have 2 wonderful children, 1 boy 1 girl. I work full time, run a Girl Scout Troop, help with the Boy Scout troop and shoot darts.
I have never been on a "diet" I have never tried to loose weight. I have been overweight since puberty in roughly the 6th grade, prior to that I was very thin. I was not what would be considered obese until I used depo Provera birth control for several years.
My weight has increasingly become an issue in my life. It has rocked my confidence and my happiness. My DH and my family seem not to notice that I'm not comfortable in my own skin. I'm not sure how DH really feels about my current weight but he compliments me often and is proud to be seen with me regardless.
*** full disclosure ***
I purchased my first scale just a few weeks ago. My starting weight was 308.4lbs...
***********************
It was horrifying to read that number...
I have read a lot of info here and I'm working on developing a support network to help me. The most important thing I've learned so far is I need to eat. Prior to January 3 when I started this journey I would eat just once a day. Dinner... now that I'm tracking my food I know that my dinners range from 500 - 800 calories... this is simply not enough!!!
I have increased my food intake to include some kind of breakfast as well as a healthy lunch.
Currently I weigh 296.0 - it's still a lot but WOW... I lost 12.4 lbs in about 5 1/2 weeks... I know I'm not setting any records but it's a healthy pace and should allow me to exceed my 50 lbs in 2011 goal... In other words... if I continue at this pace I will be back to my pre-pregnancy weight of 210 in about 1 year. It took me 11 years to gain the weight so it's incredible to think I could undo all that bad in just 1 short year.
In addition to MFP I log my goals on Stickk.com (2drgns) I put in the 50lbs and it gives me weekly #s to hit and calculated my final weight at the end of 52 weeks depending on my current progress...
Please feel free to email me. I need all the friends I can get.
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